I cant continue this blog for the next couple days. My deppression is eating me up and its taking all of my energy. It is taking everything I have to get up out of bed, sitting here writing this im weak, im tired, and I just wanna go to sleep. Yesterday I was so happy to start writing about Kurt Cobain but it honestly doesnt matter. He is dead suicide or not he is dead no going back no changing it. And like my grandparents pointed out to me numerous times there is no reason why i should be writing about it or having an intrest in things that dont matter. Its not like anyone actrually cares about this blog. Maybe it would be different if this actrually meant something to someone. But i have to beg my close friends to read it. I have to physically pull it up on my family members phones or they wont ever take a look. Im pretty sure my mom doesnt even know i have this blog.
In conclusion, I cant right now. All my energy has to go in me eating and taking a shower. Cause today is the first time I showered in days and that took most of my energy. Im just to tired, to exausted from fighting the battles in my head. Last night I lost the battle... maybe ill win the war at somepoint... maybe
TTFN💙
No comments:
Post a Comment
Leave something nice or insightful. Just nothing mean, I have a frail heart.