Day two

Its 11:51 pm as I write this post in my bed. It’s only the second day and I’m already screwing this up. Today was okay... my grandpa and I got in a couple of fights. I’m considering moving back in with my mom but I’m terrified of that house. Either way like I said today was okay, excuse my lack of punctuation is 11:54 now and I’m a little distracted due to being on facetime with my best friend, it started raining really hard so I put on a bikini and sat in the rain. It felt good because the road was hot  making the rain warm. I found a 5 leaf clover... you think that’s great but I’ve found at least 20 of them. My yard has dozens upon dozens of clovers with more than 3 leafs. At first I jokingly considered myself lucky but the day I found my first 4 leaf clover my ex told me how he no longer loved me in that way. Which sucks since he already moved on and by the next week he had a new girlfriend. It’s fine though cause I’m not even supposed to have a boyfriend and who even needs one at 14. If you aren’t dating to get married then you’re dating to break up. Then again he was the only thing keeping me going while I was dealing with going to mental hospitals and dealing with coming out about my father. Oh well... goodnight❤️