Good afternoon

 There is a personality test that is supposed to be really accurate so I took it. It's called 16 personalities and basically you take this somewhat thought provoking test about how you live your day to day life, what you like, how you act, and how you think. The link will be below if you wanna take it.
.https://www.16personalities.com
After taking the test with the help of others (so it is more accurate) it concluded my personality type was: ESFP aka: The entertainer
Now when I this i was a little surprised but I can see it in me. I mean I carry around a ukulele wherever I go, I never shut up, and I quote songs on the daily.
However, before writing this post I looked into my personality type more and found this:
Entertainers are the most likely personality type to always try to look for the bright side.

HA YOU THOUGHT

Okay, Im a realist. I don't focas on the bad side, nor do I focus on the brightide. I look at a situation at what it is. Im logical, well apparently not.
         Side note: Im distracted cause im watching Shane Dawson be overly gay
Okay im gonna try to focus

When you open the ESFP article the first thing you read is a quote.

"I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you surely don’t deserve me at my best.-Marilyn Monroe"

 I instantly began to hate my self even more. It sounds so ignorant but so true.

The only thing Im happy about is cause im 'aesthetic' and if you know me in real life that is my life goal. Also according to this sight i cant keep a relationship which to me is scary cause im a person who cannot be alone. Im meant to be married to have the picture perfect family. Though their thoughts of ESPF's in parenthood are aligned with my thoughts of how i would raise my kids. Not wanting them to have the same shortcoming as i did.

To go in more detail an ESFP is

Extraversion (E) ,Sensing (S), Feeling (F), Perception (P)

I would not have thought of myself to be an extrovert (an outgoing, overtly expressive person) over being an introvert(a shy, reticent person.)
Sensing: Im very empathetic and i feel im that way cause i know how it feels to be sad to be hurt and i dont want anyone feeling that way ever. I put myself into their shoes, i cry at movies can its like im that person.
Feeling: Im so extra
Perception: According to a couple of sites, my feelings are introverted. From what I have gathered this part of my personality is what can cause me to be selfish and where i get my sensitivity. 

Extroverted Sensing with Introverted Feeling

This is all for today. Im going to see my husband (Chris Pratt) in theaters and need to get dressed.

TTFN💙💙(Ta Ta for now)